Xenophobia

I am that frightened child deep in the refuge of my sacred covers
Exhaustedly falling asleep to the lullaby of terror, Cooed by the violent rockings of fear
maybe that is why my heart beats so hard
Traveling secret paths to school avoiding the bus
Freedom in evasion; triumph in ignoring
Desperately existing I am, serving to appease others
Yet in my whited chambers I revolt my allegiances, beating upon the padded walls
“No…no more please!”

as think lethal lithium into my veins, “Ahhh, sweet release…shh, it will pass.”
Eyes roll back, mouth slightly ajar expelling the toxic drool of peace
Revolutions commence, vertigo is my asylum counseled by Legions
The monsters only come out when I can’t see them
Till I learned there are no damn monsters
Except in me